Some days I feel strong. I look forward with my head held high and I tell myself, I don't need him or any other guy to complete my life. I live for myself, and no one else. I must therefore be able to find happiness and fulfillment in myself before I can love someone truely. I read. study, teach, run and smile and laugh really hard. They do lift my spirits most of the time. I have good friends who keep me sane. But at odd times of the day, or rather, some days, I feel so down, that no amount of consolation helps. The memories seem faint and far away now. I don't look back with tears anymore. But I still feel resentful at the way I was treated. My sister says this is called self pity plus self absorbation. Well, she's most probably right. Resentment is not good. self pity and self absorbtion is not good.

Soldier on aileen =)