I study,run,teach and talk to people. I live my life as I deem fit. When once I feel I've been running and hiding away from things, now it suddenly seems clear to me that I have always been searching.But what am I searching for? Am I searching for answers within others? If so, what kind of answers do I seek? Do I seek reassurance? To ascertain my self-worth? Or could I have been searching for someone? Which I have always vehemently deny, because my stubborn self thinks there is no need to depend on another close being for my own happiness as it would most probably only be short-lived.

I would like to think that I'm not conflicted. I have goals to work towards, dreams I want fulfilled, and an independence of mind that I developed through time. But at times, my feelings get all awry, and a flurry of emotions surface and bury all my senses. Most of the time I just suck it in, and get on with life. But sometimes, loneliness really sets in. because no one understands how it feels to be so trapped.