like I said. We are all ugly. That is the truth. Any notions of bringing out the good in your souls through the evolution of time, or nurturing our good innate self through crossing paths with others, totally bullcrap. shitcrap.

I have held back writing this for long enough. It is strangely pricking my nerves even more than usual. Probably because of the exam stress. I have to get it off my chest.

Our basal self isn't one that is innocent, honest and good. Adam and Eve spoilt that for us when they ate the fruit from the forbidden tree. We all have motives when we do something. How often do you drag a friend out because you want to spend time with your friend, and not because you want to do something and need company. How often do you actually call a friend up and ask : what would you like to do today? instead of : let's go do this and this. Very few of us actually do that. Its something that people do unconciously. I only realised this on an ocassion of extreme depression. To put it in a nice way, people usually think of the activity they want to do first, before finding someone whom they would enjoy the company of. To put it blatantly, we make use of each other. Its not nice to see it spelt out so clearly. But that's just what it is. I 'm not shirking any responsibility and denying i ever do such things. Like I said, everyone is this way. It is our basal nature.

Why is life a complication? we humans are designed anatomically in a way that is sophisticatry in the highest form. Just studying the brain alone would automatically disallow you from studying the heart as well. That's why we have specialist in the medical field. brain surgeons, gynaelogist, heart surgeon, optomologist...etc. Life is then made complicated, because we humans will it to be so. Life can only present to you sets of scenarios or circumstances. Life can throw you obstacles and bring you on roller coster rides. But these may not be complications. They're just like mere facts being served to you on a platter. Its up to you how you want to seperate your dishes, which to eat first, what to discard, whether to finish up the whole platter. See? in making these decisions, the human brain is at work. So how can you say that life is complicated?

I don't want to counter argue about the rest of the entries I put up previously. There is a reason as to why I post entries. It may be because of events I encounter, or people who provoked. That entry wasn't just a mere shell, something for you to argue about with words and phrases seemingly beautiful but in fact meaningless. It is about something that bothered me tremendously. Writing is all the release that I have. Seeing as that I've become sort of a recluse. Please don't take that away from me. I would also appreciate it if you stop quoting my quotes. They're mine. and they're put up there because of something that happened as well. Its fine if you want it on your blog as well, for whatever reasons you have. But pls at least put a disclaimer saying that its from my blog. Its not nice to just extract and not acknowledge.