Only when u're tested, then will you know your limits.

I may be small built, but I'm definitely no pushover. I always tell myself that I won't ever condon any kind of infedility. I know in the past, I will never accept anyone who's fickle in a relationship. I wouldn't accept guys with vices too. clubbing guys are bad eggs. But after going through all the shit above, I know that I have a very strong heart because, firstly, I'm still alive; I haven died of heartache yet. secondly, my life miraculously continued to go on even through all the shit above. Sometimes I feel angry at myself for being so magnanimous, so forgiving, so unselfish, so kind and so trusting. I definitely got all those from my dad. Its unnerving. But there's nothing I can do about it. I have always been mild tempered. Even when I'm angry, I keep quiet. This is the most disturbing thing I feel abt myself. Even when I found out he cheated on me yet again, my heart failed me. Silence was the only way I knew how to cope with the situation. Ranting is not beyond me. But as i said, I have such a big heart, that I swallowed all my anger and thought up of so many excuses for him.

But because of the way I'm brought up, and the many sensible friends I have, even through my severe heartache, my brains continued to function. Till now, I don't know how I managed to survive through those few days of absolute agony. See? this is called triumph in adversity. If I were just an outsider listening and watching my life through this trying period, I would never believe I could be this strong.

I'm not Aileen Almighty for nothing you know.