It was an eventful friday.

Don't you think it is weird to see two people who are completely alike in personality and character, being together? I give you an example. Let's say if both are spendthrift people. When they go out, both spend like crazy. one would spend excessively and impulsively on shopping and the other will spend impulsively and excessively on food, movie tickets, and whatever things that guys pay for. I think its crazy to have a couple like that. I'm not one of those people who believe in matching personalities, matching character traits or matching whatever else in a partner. But neither do i believe in the theory that opposites attract. That will be too freaky too. I can never imagine myself dating a quiet guy. To say that I believe in soulmates would be too much of a cliche. I choose to say that I believe in fate. I believe that you meet people for a reason. Whether it is for the purpose of healing you in times of need, or to enrich your lives, people do meet at the cross roads of each other's lives through fate i think.

I don't regret meeting you, though you screwed my A levels. I'm aware that I'm shooting myself in the feet by saying this, because this also means that I do not regret screwing up my A levels. Well, Some things are just mutually exclusive don't you think so? I'm glad that you realised that you were the source of my happiness, as well as the source of my pain. I feel glad hearing this from you that night. It shows that you were at least aware of how I felt. Thank you. I remember feeling depressed for so long. Happiness feels like something new to me now. Well, I do doubt that I'm genuinely happy at times. But seeing you again was liberating. The sense of familiarity was suffocating. Yet I felt trepidation at the same time. It was exhausting to thread carefully between that fine line between us. I'm proud I didn't fall over because I don't want to experience that kind of hurt again.

You didn't completely change. Neither did you completely stay the same. Similarly, we, as a collective noun, weren't completely the same either. you were still as animated. I on the other hand was a little inhibited. You tried to step over the line. like how you always used to. But I kept you away, something I wouldn't do in the past. Time helped me see things clearer. I don't blame you anymore or hate you with a vengeance. But I saw the sameness in us that day. We are too alike.

Were you expecting me to say that I would date you when you asked me that wierd question? sorry. I spoke the truth when I said I wanted no one. not you. not him. not anyone. I have grown too faint-hearted to play the many facets of mind-reading games anymore.

About the shoes. sorry. I lied. I threw the other one away. out of anger and spite. But thinking back, if i were to be given a chance to turn time back, I would still have thrown it away. I'm not one who dwells on unhappy things for too long if I can. I like to move forward. The shoe symbolised my inapt of getting over you. I grew even more frustrated seeing it. and so that's how it ended up in the incinerator. I'm glad you still keep yours.

We can be the best of friends.

you're not my soulmate. neither am I yours.

But I still love you. (because you still remembered i loved rocher =] )