sometimes, taking things too seriously will not do much good. this applies especially between two people. Sure, i do not believe in platonic relationships. But i'm beginning to see the beauty of it.It is flirting without strings attached. It is knowing yet not saying, and it is not giving too much due consideration to what goes on in the person's life outside the sphere of the two people.

The possibility of what may happen is infinite. and it is this that thrills me. I may sound abit sick and to some extend,'loose'. Just as long as I know that I won't succumb to any sexual deeds with just anyone. who cares what others say.

There was once a time I believed very strongly in monogamy and all the other righteous things like faithfulness and honesty between two people in love. But I don't feel so strongly about these values anymore. I used to hold on to them so dearly. I guess I grew up and learnt the ways of the changing world along the way. Whatever unconventional values I've come around to, there is however one thing that i'll never condon or accept. That is, to get involved with a married man. However open-minded i may be, I feel some things just cannot be overrode just like that.

Ikea-ed today! haven been to the place in ages. Its a lovely place to shop for stuff for one's home. I'm so gonna model my home from their many displays there.

The food there sucks. I saw potato salad and suddenly remembered friend M saying that it was very good. So i decided to try it. it turned out not very nice. not disgusting, but not exactly nice either. the tomato spaghetti taste the worse. ok. from the name itself i should have known not to even try it.

We went to this place xxxxxxxx for a snack that day and something amusing happened. Its so stupid. i don't know what to think. There was this ah beng type waiter who was trying to act classy. You just can tell from his ah beng hair and ahbeng lingo. Anyways, he tried to act smart by memorising our orders. As expected, he forgot our orders as more people started coming in. Even after finishing the last crumbs of our cake, our drinks still hasn't arrived yet. we were freaking thirsty from all the talking and laughing and that ah beng still continued to walk pass us serving others. Now, the exciting part. we pointed out to him that he forgot our drinks. and in his act classy way, he apologised. He then said that its his fault for forgetting, so he's gonna treat us. I waved him away and said no need. Guess wad,when we were leaving, he shoved into my hands the cost of one cup of coffee. ah beng flirting with diners in broad day light! I was amused yet disturbed at the same time. not to mention, friend S was riled.

Sometimes, people are just so wierd. There's just so many wierd people around. I was thinking to myself just recently. maybe we should embrace these people with an open heart and mind, because it is them who provides entertainment for us and sometimes put our views into perspective. cheers to weird ppl. (I'm suddenly reminded of min's story of fully tugged in shirts and ankle-length skirts in srjc. hahaha)

I am back after a long hiatus. Its wierd how sometimes I think of something to blog abt, and when I'm at the create post page, I can't squeeze a single word out.

Oh wells. my life is reverting back to peacefulness. No outings everyday, no phonecalls in and out by horrible brainless guys and no stalkers. I have come full circle, I must say. Its good to be a recluse I realised. Less friends, less trouble which also means less fun.

I have approximately one more month of 'free-dom' before work starts piling its load on me. Better remind myself everyday to cherish the time and not waste it all away.

I swear the computer in SAA is loony. I don't know how the hell I could have passed the bloody thing. The first few questions were questions I've never seen in my life. the subsequent questions weren't any better either.Those when you cannot ascertain that you've gotten the answers correct.

conclusion: computer is loony.

my girlfriends know I love them. so therefore the reduncy of the tribute.


actually..I'm just lazy.

haha

I have an extremely bad case of 'day-dreaming' while studying. I always like to think that the brain is a very powerful tool. But I would also like to add that it may also be dangerous. The brain follows no orders. It wanders wherever it wants to, even when you tell it to stop. It may listen to your commands sometimes, but only for a fraction of a milli-second. That makes the brains dangerous.

While studying, 'the brain' went into zoning out mode. Guess where it landed? It stayed for a long while at the 'yuanyuan' memory. Then it moved on to Johanan. Then to the comparison of both of them, and then it led to this post. Which is supposed to be a tribute to some very significant individuals who helped me grow up. Its quite a sudden and random idea. But seeing that the end of the year has inevitably showed its bum, I might as well take the chance to write some tributes.

Yuanyuan first. I can never stop thinking of you. You're such an asshole. But you really taught me the definition of an asshole. I learnt that you represent only the minimum requirement of assholes. because I believe that there would definitely be people who are much worse than you. I've heard many stories of even bigger assholes. Not that I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt. I don't care if you change or not. I like you for who you are. asshole or not.

Johanan. Its been awhile since we talked. But he never fails to provide me with many interesting intellectual insights to the various aspects of life. What the heck. Life IS mind boggling. If not for some of the overwhelmingly happy events which happened in MY life, I would just give up on life already. Thanks to Jo, he puts my life back into perspective. I just seriously love intellectual guys. You learn so much more from them than you can ever learn during any girls' night out. I feel ashamed for saying this. But I really do like girls' night out too. But I like intellectual debates with smart guys as much. no offence.

my brains contemplated comparing them. but i'll just scratch that out totally, cuz you can't compare asshole with gentleman. cuz the asshole will lose big time.

Maurice. My musically inclined, but interestingly eccentric friend. I cnnot begin to tell you how wierd this friend is. But he's still a very good pal. Like Jo, he's intellectual too. albeit, in a different way. He shuns conventions like nobody's business. God bless him. He found a friend like me who so totally finds his insights refreshing but....wierd. He taught me many things too. Especially in terms of the classical music world. I admit I'm quite a lazy person when it comes to research.But thank goodness. He's there to spoonfeed me with little bite sized information when I need it. It has ever occured to me before that I might just be making use of him. Well, to some extent, yes. But I still like him as a friend. enough said. anymore will just come off as being defensive.

I have a couple more I would like to mention. But I shall leave it for another time cuz now's the time to HIT THE BOOKS! those mentioned above happen to be guys. sorry gals. wait for the other post!

I would like to add that, very seldom do I meet intellectual girls with the same wavelength as moi. Except for my best friend of course. don't be offended though if you happen to be a die-hard feminist. I just happen to know more guys than girls. 'you can put the blame on me'